I am guaranteed suffering as a believer. This doesn’t mean that I should seek to suffer but it doesn’t mean that I should avoid it either. Suffering is apart of the promise. Suffering is apart of the call. Suffering is apart of my identity.
My inability to get off the throne of my heart and relinquish it to Christ is the problem. I can’t continue to separate service to Him from service to “them”. God is deeply invested in His design. He cares how I treat people just as much as He cares how I treat Him
The fact is though it isn’t about me. I was created in God’s image and that’s beautiful. I should want to be known by God’s presence in my life. I should want to stand out for HIM and be associated with HIM. God is loving, merciful, gracious, kind, truthful, and so much more. Bearing His image is more than a notion is it a call. Pray that this gets to my heart.
I ended up here on purpose. I fought hard to lose myself. Only it wasn't supposed lead me to this destination. There wasn't supposed to be pain, loss, heartache, grief, mourning, disappointment, failure, or dissatisfaction on this path. I was supposed to be finding myself. This journey was about self-discovery.